About six months ago I realized my mind had changed. My mind – not just my brain – but my mind. I was diagnosed with a mental/mood disorder and my world crumbled. Telling me my brain was not working correctly is like telling a beauty queen they need Botox. My husband always says he married me […]
Mental Illness : Living In the Dark
I started this blog to help others who are going through something similar and just like what I am going through. I wanted to bring light to the dark. My business page has 2000 followers (not a lot in FB terms but thats 2000 sets of eyes and ears). Yet part of me is still […]
The Panic Attack
They call it a panic attack. That is such an overused set of words today. You can hear the phrase tossed around in conversation like an upset stomach. Panic attacks are painful. Panic attacks are exhausting. Panic attacks are heart wrenching. Panic attacks evoke a fear within that….the words are not there. The world goes black. […]
Laundry
What is it about this love | hate relationship with laundry? I despise laundry (to the point I often pay someone to do it for me) but there is something about it that makes your subconscious love it. I have a loud mind. It screams often and I want to just escape it. My conscious mind […]
The Dark Places
What is it that torments my mind and soul It creeps in when least expected Surrounds my heart, crushes my soul, darkens my light. A dark angel trapped by the light for so long Now emerges to hurt those I love To take from me what I took from it. Why must there always be […]
Line in the Dirt
6/9/15 Being diagnosed Bipolar II will bring a blow to you. At first comes denial. It’s impossible for you. You have such a strong mind. It will make you cry. It will make you feel. It’s a line in your life…Drawn straight between before and after the diagnosis. It’s a very deep line. My life will never be the same but is that a bad thing? –––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––––– 9/2/15 […]
A Girl Walks Into A Bar
A girl walks into a bar and starts chatting it up with the bartender. She explains she just hasn’t felt herself lately. She’s felt overwhelmed, confused, exhausted, energized, depressed, filled with suffering, angry, grateful, happy….and her list went on. She shared her roller coaster of emotions and recent actions and those around her listened. Her […]
The Beginning
12|9|11 Dad’s Cancer Diagnosis 1 year to live I’ve never in my life looked at my dad as weak until today. His mind isn’t weak nor his soul but first time in my life he seemed frail as if the cancer is as bad as they say. Cancer – what a nasty word. One […]