This is probably the most organic image I’ve created. A week ago I started sketching out a series of butterfly images. The day I planned to do them was the day I had to tear down my she shed. My she shed was more than a building and I guess had become a space that […]
Journaling
I’ve Been Here Before
I won’t lie. Staying in the light is difficult for me. I’ve held it too which is good and bad. It makes me want to fight for it and give up whatever I need to give up. However it also scares the hell out of you to know the light is slipping. The peace. The […]
Dave & Brandi
I’ve been a poet since I was young. I always found respite with a journal, pen and the four corners of my bedroom. I’ve always had my music and my words regardless of how alone I may have felt. They always reminded me I was not alone. Flash forwards 30 years later and I still […]
When My Bipolar Gets The Best of Me
It’s days like today that I’m reminded that Bipolar is a stronger beast than I give it credit for at times. A morning of sudden anxiety and harsh tones in my every word. Leave dropoff thinking fourth graders are laughing at my car and Julia. Dreading each minute of a spin class I usually love then […]
A Letter to Mary Jane
Dear Mary Jane, I wanted to take a minute to say thank you so much for being you. You are a blessing from God and I truly believe this. You help me cope when I’m feeling overwhelmed. After spending a few minutes together it doesn’t seem so bad. I can sort through the important and […]
God Speaks
“Relax, close your eyes, and pray for comfort. Give to Divine Mind your despair, your sadness, your hopelessness, your regret, your embarrassment, your pain, your grief, your fear, and your burdens. Do not rush through this darkness. Allow yourself to enter into it in order to move through it. And in time the light will […]
The Feel of Passion | Why I Left Portrait Photography
The smell of sweet honeysuckle dancing under your nose to announce the arrival of spring. The feeling of air under your toes as your boots embrace the powdery snow. The velvety feel of fine watercolor paper between your fingers. I loved loved loved photography when I stumbled into portrait photography almost seven years ago. I loved putting the camera down […]
22 Days of Mania
After weeks of depression I welcomed Mania today. Now how long Mania stays – who knows. I could wake up depressed again tomorrow but today I’ve got this. I just have to be very mindful of my actions today. Day 2 of Mania. If you aren’t Bipolar you have no idea what I’m so excited […]
Finding the Beauty in Bipolar
Months ago when I was diagnosed as Bipolar 2 my world fell apart. Looking back now I would have laughed and slapped the person that posted the quote below from tiny buddha . You have to first understand that me being diagnosed with an incurable illness of the brain was like a beauty queen being told she […]
Letting Go
“In the process of letting go you will lose many things from the past, but you will find yourself.” – Deepak Chopra Letting go of a career that I still love but have lost that creative passion for is tough – you have to look deep inside to understand why a passion has died. I’ve realized that […]